I was born in New England. One of my ancestors fought on the Union side in the Civil War. As far as I can tell none of my ancestors ever owned a slave, and many of them were strongly opposed to slavery. In the colonial days, the majority of my ancestors from at least 1640 or so were Friends (Quakers).
My parents did not know many black people when they were growing up, but they believed absolutely that all people were equal regardless of race.
My mother told me many stories about one of her high school teachers, who was an African American man. He was probably the smartest man in her town, and she never found that remarkable. Why shouldn’t a black man be erudite?
My mother and father made friends with an inter-racial couple. There were not that many mixed-race couples around in those days, and they were often ostracized. Knowing that they were social outcasts to some degree, my parents were happy to befriend them.
My parents hated segregation. Frankly, they did not even understand how anyone could ever make black people sit at the back of a bus or drink from separate fountains. They were not activists, but in their own quiet ways they simply eschewed bigotry, prejudice, and racism. Our family attended multi-racial churches. My parents taught us to respect all people and treat them as equal members of the human race. Had we ever uttered a racial epithet, it would have been one of the most egregious things we could have done, and I expect my mother would have washed our mouths out with soap.
Eventually we moved to the South. I was in seventh grade, and I was dumbfounded to hear my white classmates talk about the time when the “black kids came over to the white school.” I had gone to school all my other years with black kids and brown kids and with just about every shade of skin that exists among people. I found that in my new school there was still a lot of tension between the white kids and black kids, but I could also see that things were changing. As kids played sports together or acted in plays together or played in the marching band together, the prejudices were waning and the tension was easing.
During the first week that we were in that school my brother and I missed the bus to go home. The middle school principal offered to drive us home. When we got there my mother invited him in for a drink in order to thank him. “No, ma’am. You don’t want me to come into your house,” he said, looking around nervously at neighboring houses. He was black.
“Oh, yes I do,” my mother answered. “And I do not care who sees you come in.”
On one of our band trips in high school, my band director had a huge dilemma. After grouping every for room assignments, he realized that he would have two black boys left over. He could not give them their own room, because of budgetary concerns. He also would have one white boy left over. He asked me if I would stay with the black boys. He told me that I was the only one that he knew who would not mind sharing a room with them and who would have the courage to stand up to other students. Although I was somewhat scared of the repercussions, I agreed.
During my first two years of college my very best friend was a black guy named John. Yes, some of my best friends have been black–literally. It’s not some pathetic cover for my secret alignment with the KKK. He and I joked with each other very comfortably, and during one Thanksgiving break when he could not go home, I invited him to come home with me. My family accepted him as one of our own. Of course.
I could narrate many other experiences involving people of other races. I could tell about the time that I fell in love with a black girl. I could tell about the time that I reprimanded a student for telling a racial joke in an all-white school and how he threatened that his father would come after me for being a “nigger-lover.” I wanted to paint a certain picture here. When I say that I am not a racist, it’s because I’m not. I never have been. I will not say that I am, just to satisfy liberal white people’s false guilt or liberal black people’s perpetual victimhood. I hate racism, and one of the last things on earth that I would ever want to be is a racist. (Some liberal white people really have been guilty, and some liberal black people really have been victims, but that’s not what I’m talking about.)
I’m not some person who used to say the N-word but then saw the error of my ways. I’m not just some cog in the machine of systemic racism. I know that systemic racism exists, fortunately less than it used to, but I oppose it. I’m not part of it. I’m no activist, but I have tried hard to live my life without any taint of bigotry or prejudice. If everyone just did that, we would not need activism against racism.
Some people will say that I defend myself too much or that I am in denial. It’s weird that in our age of psychobabble, denial amounts to proof of guilt. If I deny that I am an alcoholic, that’s proof that I am. If I deny that I am a racist, that is proof that I am. Whatever!
Sometimes people deny things because they really are not that way.